Updates!

So I wrapped up my Let’s play for The Darkness II and have started my Let’s Play for GoldenEye Reloaded.

But the biggest news that I’ve got is that I finally gave my notice that I will be leaving my apartment in Framingham this week. Since then I cannot stop smiling knowing that I’ll be leaving this hell hole. There have been a lot of memories generated here in the two years that I’ve been here. Many good ones, Many bad ones, but it’s time to leave.

I’ve also started working on writing a short story that might be expanded, or may just be turned into a short film that I film with people once it’s all said and done. Who knows. I’ve also started work on a cover song in which I play everything but the drums. That last one is probably the furthest from being completed because honestly, it’s going to take a lot of editing and blahhhhhhhhh

SCIENCE (Note: title has nothing to do with post)

As I sit here, idly watching the time go by as my computer plugs away trying to figure out how to do the seemingly impossible. I can’t help but let my mind drift to thoughts of the future. So much has changed in the past year, VISTAGY got bought out by Siemens, I got a cat named Ling, I flew on a plane for the first time, I did my first training in Detroit, I made countless benchmarks in SDE and Fibersim both of which made me want to hide in a corner and scream at the top of my lungs while expanding my knowledge of how to use CATIA and NX. I also got massively depressed and often hid in my room avoiding human contact while having thoughts of suicide crash into my head.

But, I survived through all the bad, and definitely enjoyed as much as I could of the good. I’ve climbed my way out of depression and tore myself apart trying to work through the flaws I found in myself. But what’s next? Where do I go from here? What do I want out of my life. Over the past years, I’ve planned so much. But lately, everything I’ve planned has fallen to pieces, slain by the hand that once help create them, amoung other things. (That imagery brought to you by Rogue Hearts, which is a song from the Dragon Age II soundtrack hah)

As my thoughts drift, they keep coming back to one reoccuring thought. Maybe I’m wrong. My entire life I’ve always wanted to live around Boston, to be close to the Bruins and the Sox, to be in one of my favorite cities. But a combination of things have caused me to really second guess if living in Boston, or hell living in the Northeast will make me happy. The first thing was actually being exposed to flying. My two trips out to Long Beach and to Detroit opened my eyes to areas that some will never see in their lives, experiences that I’ll probably never have again (I doubt that though. I kind of liked them both a lot.). The second thing was caused by a person. Laura to be exact. Earlier this year, she told me she was going to move to Tennessee. It was completely out of the blue, and definitely took me surprise. I reacted quite immaturely to the news of her leaving because I selfishly wanted her in my life but the fact of the matter is she deserved more than anyone in this world to be happy.

I think what I’m going to do is give proper Boston a couple years. None of this living in Framingham and claiming I’m awesome. I’m moving somewhere in the city. And giving it a real shot, while hopefully continueing to explore parts of the US. (Right now I’m definitely wanting to check out Utah, Arizona and Texas.)

Who knows, maybe there is somewhere else that’ll make me happier. I don’t think this really makes sense either. But I wrote it, So I post it.

Project Fitness – Photo Updates!

So I missed last Wednesday and this Wednesday. But I took the pictures. Here they are

Last Wednesday – Feb 29th, 2012

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Yea it’s edited because I made a really bad face. Here’s 2 from today with my face

March 7th, 2012

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The biggest news of the week. I benched 255 for 2.5 (I cheated on the third rep and went halfway down and freaked out because I didn’t have a spotter. Lame I know)

Also… I have to stop leaning back. It makes me look bad hah

For those who believe in Dream Interpretations

So last night and a couple random nights in my past I’ve had a dream that was eerily similar to this one. So to cut to the chase, here’s what happened in it

It’s the first day of university, or the first day of classes, I couldn’t quite tell all I know is that there were a ton of people that I didn’t know around me. I was walking up to a class or my dorm room in a really tall building with a huge staircase. I start climbing the staircase with all the other people but then it starts getting more and more painful. It feels as if my left leg is being frozen and it makes climbing the stairs increasingly difficult until I get to the next floor where I find a cane. My progress is still dreadfully slow but I remain kind and help people with disabilities by holding a door open and letting them go first. My dream ends with me still climbing at a dreadfully slow pace, with a lot of pain, and using the cane to muster the strength to continue.

Now for those of you who believe in Dream interpretations, here’s what I could find:

College

To dream that you are in college indicates that you are going through some social or cultural changes. You want to expand your knowledge and awareness. It also suggests that now is a good time for you to experiment and try new things. If you had gone to college in your past, then also consider your personal experiences and memories of your college days.

Climbing stairs

To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs indicate that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.

really slowly

To dream that you are moving in slow motion suggests that you are feeling powerless, anxious or frustrated. You are currently going through a hard time in your waking life and experiencing tremendous stress, which is almost immobilizing you.

as if in pain (muscles locking up)

To dream that you are in pain suggests that you are being too hard on yourself, especially if a situation was out of your control. The dream may also be a true reflection of actual pain that exists somewhere in your body. Dreams can reveal and warn about health problems. Consider where the pain is for additional significance. If the pain is in your neck, then the dream may be a metaphor that you are literally being a “pain in the neck”.

lots of people

To see people you don’t know in your dream denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.

have a cane

To see or use a cane in your dream suggests that you are in need of some support and advice. The cane may also represent someone you trust and can rely on.

Helping People

To dream that you are helping someone indicates your willingness to compromise your beliefs toward a greater accomplishment. It also represents your efforts to combine your talents or energies to achieve a mutual goal.

Looking at all these interpretations and my life I kind of feel that it’s right. That the combination of these pieces kind of point out things in my life. Thoughts?